GO AHEAD!!

I don't know what I'm gonna write a new entry..
Confused! I'm so confused!
So many things going on lately. I dunno what should I do?
Should I cry?? but my tears can't get out!
I wanted to tell someone, but I don't know who can I tell about this~
Someone who have been I believe it can't be trusted!
Someone who I think it was my best friend isn't my best friend!
I don't know!
"sometimes, thing I want! very far from my expected!"
I wanna tell my mom but I don't know how I tell about it, I think I can finish it alone and deal it by myself.
But sometimes I really wanna have someone who could I tell about it? someone who can see my tears are very exhausted!
I'm afraid if I tell with my mom, she'll worry about me!
Today, I know something not true!
I know what all this time I think it's true!
It was painful! but thanks god!
You have shown what is wrong and will hurt!
I prefer a painful thing in the first time more than at in the end!
This will form a my stronger personality! This will make me have a better of be patient! I have to keep going! prove everything if I could!
I can do now is cheer myself!
convince myself if I could! I could do it without anyone else!
God is always with me! God always take care of me! God always puts me among the good people!

GO AHEAD! KEEP FIGHT! FIGHTING!!