Isn't Beauty and the Beast!????!!

This is about me! but .....
do you know about beauty and the beast? a man who have ugly-faced gets a beautiful girl?

ah, maybe it's not too far away with me now! hahaha... This is funny and embarrassing!
but this is reality!

this not the first time i like someone who have relationship with someone..
sometime, really weird when i remember about this?
why always like someone who has a girlfriend?
why always like someone who doesn't like me?
why always like someone who never thinking about me?
and why??? I like someone so easily?? hahaha..

but, don't think too badly of me..bcoz this just like doesn't really love? (maybe)
i like someone until now, i can't forget him..
just one!! first time i like him when we become a friend on junior high school..
i dunno if i like with him, i'm still denied about my feeling! always say with my mind, this is for a while???

but, time goes bye.. my heart still thinking about him.. i can't say if i like him! i can't say if i wanna go out with him! i can't say if i wanna be someone who always like him! bcos we're friend! we don't want if our relationship as friend will be end..

that's so long time..
my heart doesn't speak(?) can't be like everyone else!!! so long time ago i never think about what kind of relationship!?? bcoz i'm still waiting for my beloved who i like from junior high school.. but until now, he never come to me and say something that i want!! hahaha
it's probably crazy girl!! waiting someone never come..

hmmm... now, i think i really like someone,,really wanna go out with him..talking about everything..always heard his voice and really want to heard his songs again!

i ever seen he singing in front of me..show his skills in front of me..
playing guitar..playing drummer..playing piano as well..
huaaah... thats really makes me melted! i can't speak anymore!
just say "woooooooaaah!!" (going to crazy!!) kkkkk~
but.. the fact is....
i'm not sure if i could be someone who his liked.. so many girl around his life..
he's also famous!

when he talking with me.. woah! that's like amazing! i'm still asking to my god, may i have someone like him??
ah.. is like beauty in the beast!! he's handsome and famous! and me?? hmmm... like a beast -__-

when I thinking about this love who I don't believe! I always think of this word ~
" Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worth while, so when you are lonely, remember this is true: Somebody, somewhere is thinking of you."

when I think about it anymore .. My mind is always saying like this~
"How do I say goodbye to someone I never really had? Why do my tears fall so endlessly for someone who was never really mine? Why is it I miss someone I was never really with? And why do I love someone whose love was never really mine?"

and the end.. i really dont want to say same like when i love best friend..that's will makes me sad anymore!!
"Don't you know that I still wait someone who don't realize that I wait him for so long.
Don't you know that I can't forget someone I really love and I don't know why.
Don't you know that I hurt really so bad because of being tired of waiting.
Don't you know...
Don't you know...
Don't you know... that someone is you ?"

and if he can hear my heart said.. i just want to say this word~

"I hope that in the end, we can all laugh and say it was worth it and  If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you."
hahahhahah.......... just share,,